Tired of everythingFriday, 8 June 2012 ♔
0 comments ♥ Sometimes I'm just really tired of continuously being nobody in everybody's life. It's not as if I've not tried enough, but things just doesn't fall in place the way I want it to be. Maybe it's just me being greedy for wanting more, but why am I the one trying all the time. It's not that you did not try, but your actions just proof me otherwise. It's not as if I'm always finding things to rant on and stuff like this. I already feel that at least life is easier than the past. But really, we people these days always think this way 'why is everything making my life difficult?' Me too, blame ourselves in living this century?
Let's see, I have friend A, friend B, and friend C alright. I don't want to state their name out to receive people calling me names like 'attention seeker', really, sometimes it's just enough. If I don't type it out in words, I'll burst out in my mind soon.
Friend A, she's someone whom I've get to known through weird means, but it seems like we get along really well. We live really far apart, we hardly know each other's life, but we're still close. If we have stuff to confide, I'll be the first to look up to her. But I guess things ain't the same at her side, cause she has a big group of friend with her, I just seem insignificant in position like this. We meet up time to time, but our gaps are getting further apart. It's not that I find this time to rant about this, but she has been oftenly making me feel like I'm nothing.
I'm the one initiating meet-ups to just try to get closer. Why the fuck do I need to do this? I'm the insignificant one.
She would always show like she had find time to in her life to slot me in, then when the date is closer, she would tell me she have something on. You think I couldn't find someone else to make my day better other than heading out with you?
Never keep up to the promise you make. Speechless to comment.
I'm doing things beneficial towards her, but she never learn to appreciate. I would always give up my own time or anything just to make her feel better and stuff.... Why am I trying so hard?!
If she doesn't want to put in effort in this friendship, let's just say this would be the last time I'm trying, I'm giving up.
Friend B, how do I explain our relationship now? Strangers after nothing? I mean we did not quarrel, nothing happened between us, but we just lost this friendship. Don't laugh, it's true.
Her relationship with all our CCA-mates became sour, she chose to salvage the friendship with them than with me.
Claiming I'm the person who knows her the best, she doesn't want to tell me any part of her life. Proving that she doesn't even trust me, ain't it?
Forever pushing me to a far end, ENOUGH.
I'm someone who hate being push around the most. If you want me, then stay by me, 'cus I'll stay by you too. I prefer people to voice out than to keep quiet, if you don't want me as your friend, say. If you don't want me to know any part of you, voice it out.
Friend C, I'm still a 'close' friend of hers. She always lie to me, should I still believe her words?
Doesn't bother being on time when she's out with me. I'm not being unreasonable, but she's always late by hours, and I always treat it as the first time. Even if she's late, I'm fine, everytime? I'm fine. But at least initiate to tell me how long you'll be late, why would you even want you friend wait for you dumbly at somewhere not knowing when you'll arrive. If you treasures me, you wouldn't treat every outing of ours as trash. AS AND WHEN YOU LIKE.
Forever lying to me, not keeping to promise. If you don't want me to have that, don't even tell me you're giving in the first place and kept giving me hope. And when I'm there itself that day, seeing you lied to me without feeling guilty. I know you're not a friend I can rely on anymore.
I really hate people whom treat me as for granted. You know when you told me you're giving me the chance to get up to stage to see my boys, you know how happy I am? I'm not being materialistic here. I'm not wanting your album, but you gave me hope. If you told me you're not even giving me in the first place, I'll just accept things as it is. Then on the day before, you lied to me. You tell me you've got CCA and stuff then you would give up the chance to go for the fansign. THE FIRST THING I SAW WHEN I'M AT BUGIS IS THAT YOU'RE ALREADY QUEUING BEFORE 4PM. Wow you stay at another end of Singapore, you can get there after your CCA, with your clothes changed, in such a short period of time. I really don't mind not having the album, but what you treat me as? What do you treat our friendship as? A lie?
I'm done, I'm feeling relieved. Before you're here to judge me about post here, please ensure yourself that you've known my story. If not please, keep your harmful remarks to yourself.
Tired of everythingFriday, 8 June 2012 | 07:26 |
0 comments ♥ Sometimes I'm just really tired of continuously being nobody in everybody's life. It's not as if I've not tried enough, but things just doesn't fall in place the way I want it to be. Maybe it's just me being greedy for wanting more, but why am I the one trying all the time. It's not that you did not try, but your actions just proof me otherwise. It's not as if I'm always finding things to rant on and stuff like this. I already feel that at least life is easier than the past. But really, we people these days always think this way 'why is everything making my life difficult?' Me too, blame ourselves in living this century?
Let's see, I have friend A, friend B, and friend C alright. I don't want to state their name out to receive people calling me names like 'attention seeker', really, sometimes it's just enough. If I don't type it out in words, I'll burst out in my mind soon.
Friend A, she's someone whom I've get to known through weird means, but it seems like we get along really well. We live really far apart, we hardly know each other's life, but we're still close. If we have stuff to confide, I'll be the first to look up to her. But I guess things ain't the same at her side, cause she has a big group of friend with her, I just seem insignificant in position like this. We meet up time to time, but our gaps are getting further apart. It's not that I find this time to rant about this, but she has been oftenly making me feel like I'm nothing.
I'm the one initiating meet-ups to just try to get closer. Why the fuck do I need to do this? I'm the insignificant one.
She would always show like she had find time to in her life to slot me in, then when the date is closer, she would tell me she have something on. You think I couldn't find someone else to make my day better other than heading out with you?
Never keep up to the promise you make. Speechless to comment.
I'm doing things beneficial towards her, but she never learn to appreciate. I would always give up my own time or anything just to make her feel better and stuff.... Why am I trying so hard?!
If she doesn't want to put in effort in this friendship, let's just say this would be the last time I'm trying, I'm giving up.
Friend B, how do I explain our relationship now? Strangers after nothing? I mean we did not quarrel, nothing happened between us, but we just lost this friendship. Don't laugh, it's true.
Her relationship with all our CCA-mates became sour, she chose to salvage the friendship with them than with me.
Claiming I'm the person who knows her the best, she doesn't want to tell me any part of her life. Proving that she doesn't even trust me, ain't it?
Forever pushing me to a far end, ENOUGH.
I'm someone who hate being push around the most. If you want me, then stay by me, 'cus I'll stay by you too. I prefer people to voice out than to keep quiet, if you don't want me as your friend, say. If you don't want me to know any part of you, voice it out.
Friend C, I'm still a 'close' friend of hers. She always lie to me, should I still believe her words?
Doesn't bother being on time when she's out with me. I'm not being unreasonable, but she's always late by hours, and I always treat it as the first time. Even if she's late, I'm fine, everytime? I'm fine. But at least initiate to tell me how long you'll be late, why would you even want you friend wait for you dumbly at somewhere not knowing when you'll arrive. If you treasures me, you wouldn't treat every outing of ours as trash. AS AND WHEN YOU LIKE.
Forever lying to me, not keeping to promise. If you don't want me to have that, don't even tell me you're giving in the first place and kept giving me hope. And when I'm there itself that day, seeing you lied to me without feeling guilty. I know you're not a friend I can rely on anymore.
I really hate people whom treat me as for granted. You know when you told me you're giving me the chance to get up to stage to see my boys, you know how happy I am? I'm not being materialistic here. I'm not wanting your album, but you gave me hope. If you told me you're not even giving me in the first place, I'll just accept things as it is. Then on the day before, you lied to me. You tell me you've got CCA and stuff then you would give up the chance to go for the fansign. THE FIRST THING I SAW WHEN I'M AT BUGIS IS THAT YOU'RE ALREADY QUEUING BEFORE 4PM. Wow you stay at another end of Singapore, you can get there after your CCA, with your clothes changed, in such a short period of time. I really don't mind not having the album, but what you treat me as? What do you treat our friendship as? A lie?
I'm done, I'm feeling relieved. Before you're here to judge me about post here, please ensure yourself that you've known my story. If not please, keep your harmful remarks to yourself.
