Upset
Saturday, 28 September 2013 ♔
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I'm so pissed and upset now :( I feel like if I don't get all these out of my heart this moment I'll be crying on the floor the next... It's like nothing is heading towards the right way these days...everything I do seems wrong and I really dislike it. I feel like it's time I blog it all out and leave all these shits behind and change myself. If not I'll be clogged up in such bullshits near no time .
O levels around the corner and I'm not even anywhere near 'done with preparation' and yet in lazing around everyday feeling aimless in life....I honestly feel aimless. I don't know what I'm actually doing with my life now. I just couldn't focus, as much as I hope I'm someone who does well academically, I'm not. I know I've to work doubly hard but I just can't bring myself to that stage. It's that bad.
Then there's me and my group of friends in school. I'm starting to feel like I don't click in as well as I do with them in the past. I'm still alright with some of them but I'm definitely feeling the distant from the two I'm once closest with. I just feel really disheartened...I thought it's our last two weeks in this school and we could just spend our last few days together cherishing each other but no...just what's with me these days. Does the problem lies in me or?
And then there's you. You need to change as much as I need to. I'm climbing up the steep slope towards my destination...becoming a better person and I think you should too. You're not the least very appreciative towards the people around you. I mean like who complains about the food they eat at home? You should be thankful you're not in the bunch of people fighting to stay alive because they're starving and will be more than willing to eat the food you're unwilling to. Complaining about your parents whom dedicated their lives just for you. Vulgarities surfaces everywhere, if I were to impersonate you it'll goes like this. 'Fuck you la, can't you just move away' 'OMG she's fucking fat'...nothing comes out your mouth through thinking and nothing comes from your heart being understanding. :( these days you just disgust me with your actions. Get back to where you belong girl, stop sort changing yourself, you deserve to be a better person.
As much as I'm pissed now I'm really really really really thankful to have another bunch of friends in my life =) whom matches me as well as I match them. ^__^ I don't know how life will be like without heidi, lyimone, ting, xuan, dee, mira. They're not any friends that I just simply meet up with everyday but true enough, they know me well enough to bring the best out of myself. Thank you girlsㅜㅜ
I want to keep becoming a better person......truthfully deep down from my heart.
Upset
Saturday, 28 September 2013 | 07:40 |
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I'm so pissed and upset now :( I feel like if I don't get all these out of my heart this moment I'll be crying on the floor the next... It's like nothing is heading towards the right way these days...everything I do seems wrong and I really dislike it. I feel like it's time I blog it all out and leave all these shits behind and change myself. If not I'll be clogged up in such bullshits near no time .
O levels around the corner and I'm not even anywhere near 'done with preparation' and yet in lazing around everyday feeling aimless in life....I honestly feel aimless. I don't know what I'm actually doing with my life now. I just couldn't focus, as much as I hope I'm someone who does well academically, I'm not. I know I've to work doubly hard but I just can't bring myself to that stage. It's that bad.
Then there's me and my group of friends in school. I'm starting to feel like I don't click in as well as I do with them in the past. I'm still alright with some of them but I'm definitely feeling the distant from the two I'm once closest with. I just feel really disheartened...I thought it's our last two weeks in this school and we could just spend our last few days together cherishing each other but no...just what's with me these days. Does the problem lies in me or?
And then there's you. You need to change as much as I need to. I'm climbing up the steep slope towards my destination...becoming a better person and I think you should too. You're not the least very appreciative towards the people around you. I mean like who complains about the food they eat at home? You should be thankful you're not in the bunch of people fighting to stay alive because they're starving and will be more than willing to eat the food you're unwilling to. Complaining about your parents whom dedicated their lives just for you. Vulgarities surfaces everywhere, if I were to impersonate you it'll goes like this. 'Fuck you la, can't you just move away' 'OMG she's fucking fat'...nothing comes out your mouth through thinking and nothing comes from your heart being understanding. :( these days you just disgust me with your actions. Get back to where you belong girl, stop sort changing yourself, you deserve to be a better person.
As much as I'm pissed now I'm really really really really thankful to have another bunch of friends in my life =) whom matches me as well as I match them. ^__^ I don't know how life will be like without heidi, lyimone, ting, xuan, dee, mira. They're not any friends that I just simply meet up with everyday but true enough, they know me well enough to bring the best out of myself. Thank you girlsㅜㅜ
I want to keep becoming a better person......truthfully deep down from my heart.
I'm so pissed and upset now :( I feel like if I don't get all these out of my heart this moment I'll be crying on the floor the next... It's like nothing is heading towards the right way these days...everything I do seems wrong and I really dislike it. I feel like it's time I blog it all out and leave all these shits behind and change myself. If not I'll be clogged up in such bullshits near no time .
O levels around the corner and I'm not even anywhere near 'done with preparation' and yet in lazing around everyday feeling aimless in life....I honestly feel aimless. I don't know what I'm actually doing with my life now. I just couldn't focus, as much as I hope I'm someone who does well academically, I'm not. I know I've to work doubly hard but I just can't bring myself to that stage. It's that bad.
Then there's me and my group of friends in school. I'm starting to feel like I don't click in as well as I do with them in the past. I'm still alright with some of them but I'm definitely feeling the distant from the two I'm once closest with. I just feel really disheartened...I thought it's our last two weeks in this school and we could just spend our last few days together cherishing each other but no...just what's with me these days. Does the problem lies in me or?
And then there's you. You need to change as much as I need to. I'm climbing up the steep slope towards my destination...becoming a better person and I think you should too. You're not the least very appreciative towards the people around you. I mean like who complains about the food they eat at home? You should be thankful you're not in the bunch of people fighting to stay alive because they're starving and will be more than willing to eat the food you're unwilling to. Complaining about your parents whom dedicated their lives just for you. Vulgarities surfaces everywhere, if I were to impersonate you it'll goes like this. 'Fuck you la, can't you just move away' 'OMG she's fucking fat'...nothing comes out your mouth through thinking and nothing comes from your heart being understanding. :( these days you just disgust me with your actions. Get back to where you belong girl, stop sort changing yourself, you deserve to be a better person.
As much as I'm pissed now I'm really really really really thankful to have another bunch of friends in my life =) whom matches me as well as I match them. ^__^ I don't know how life will be like without heidi, lyimone, ting, xuan, dee, mira. They're not any friends that I just simply meet up with everyday but true enough, they know me well enough to bring the best out of myself. Thank you girlsㅜㅜ
I want to keep becoming a better person......truthfully deep down from my heart.